Tuesday, November 25, 2008
freaking tired right now at home. i jus got scolded n NAGGED alot by my mom.. n its jus over photocopying of wrkshts... omg. i cant believe her. she jus wants me to go all the way to her ex wrk place area to photocopy the notes but its like a super delibrate trip n it doesnt make any diff photocopying in my hse dwnstairs shop. wtfriggin'hell... arrgh. sorry guys but im jus awfully pissed off by my mom's ignorant attitude. whatever... then guitar teacher told me today with such progress, i might not be able to take the grade 3 exam next yr. cos my scaled is pratically flunked! (PS i HATE scales n appregios) freaking making my life diff. wads the use of scales anyway? i play music pieces better than skills n i know all the theory. jus playing that freaking scales is a complete waste of my time. n time is wad i do not hav already. next year is my j2 year with my a lvls.. my studies = BDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD countless Ds.. i didnt study anything at all but chem n i jus got 68. wth. forget it.. i gotta chiong my math n for god's sake memorise my stupid chi lit stuff... next is my dance syf next year n trainings 3 times a wk. i've finished 2 trainings this week! so JIAYOU JIAYOU(: I CAN DO IT!!!! lol... feeeling much better now.. hahas. so anyways open hse is coming n my hip hop sucks like hell., i cant do hip hop when all i've trained for 5 years is contemporary dance. i dunno howta shake tt body n hands n doing power moves is completely off my ability.. arrgh... im trying very hard ppl(: n i know u all haven giv up on me (: thx alot for helping me so much. lastly for today, i jus hope desmond is alright (: cheeries...hahas.. love u guys
~9:40 PM
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Saturday, November 22, 2008
its raining outside; im staring into space. so bored right now.. cos im all alone outside, the sky is super dark. cant help but keep thinking of what i dreamt last night.. such a scary nightmare of dreaming russel lee. omg. i think im crazy last night. but anyways, the feeling of wanting to stead again comes back.. hahas. szeting arh szeting... how? i've been trying super hard... cos of the dream i cant memorise my chem stuff. wth... now im here spacing out n blogging at the same time. don't know when this rain will end neither do i know when my life will be normal again. or, was my life ever normal? " The utmost pain in this world is not about breaking up with you, Its the love and memories we once shared" i really agree to this sentence.. breaking up is nothing. it suddenly dawned on me that it is the memories that we've kept which led us to misery and depression. memories which hurt us over and over again each time we recollect it.. stupid brains.. hahas. honestly i cant remember studies stuff well but memories are simply difficult to erase from my mind. lol. im getting crazy all over with trainings for syf and studies i guess... plus with my chinese pw, oh man.. im getting a serious brain crack...
ps yong: i cant stop laughing at the project runway guy. hahahahhahahahhas.. u're so mean
~5:14 PM
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Saturday, November 15, 2008
~11:27 AM
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