Thursday, January 21, 2010
the thought of separation already hurt alot and now the parting and leaving of him makes it worse.. i hate it when friends lovers have to part eventually.. or maybe i never thought it would happen so fast. really tired; spiritually emotionally and physically.
~9:51 PM
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Monday, January 18, 2010
am working in starhub now.. and the job sucks alot.. feeling so sick right now.. thinking of time to get off work.. been feeling down lately and sometimes i wonder if somewhere something has gone wrong in my life... thinking of best friend leaving u at 6th feb is depressing enough, and somehow i feel that everyone has changed - or is it just me? now i finally understand what it means nothing can stay the same... - even my tigger grows more n more dusty on my desk now - today really no mood to work i dont know why.. just sick of doing things today.. sometimes i dont even know what or how to feel as memories flow down together with ur train of thoughts.. somehow u'll feel happiness with a slight tinge of sadness, but for me i guess its the other way around. something unexpected just pops out into ur life and things that u think that will not be around again just suddenly comes out again.. been thinking of a diary i've kept for very long.. it contains memories of everyday ; how i feel since sec 2 till4.. but no matter how hard i find its not around anymore.. even when i moved house; i searched high and low but its missing.. and it feels depressing like a part of your memory just corrodes away in a corner where u know u'll never find it back.. life is just simply so random and most of the times depressing. i am feeling very emo n sick of the job that im doing - but i dont hav a choice. all in all; being a human is just pathetic enough.
~1:54 PM
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
wow.. been a long time since i blogged.. its been after A's for some time and im currently working. sigh.. i hate the same old boring work everyday looking at the com checking for overdue amt =.= and today i was so crazy i msg jh n ask if he liked me... lols.. this is the exact result of not eating for 3 days... n im so forgetful n getting a lil haywire up there... but i do like him lurh.. just tt i cant understand y i asked him such dumb qn... n tmr gg work i have to face him what am i suppose to do? pretend t\nothing happen? we used to b so close but after tonight i doubt so... so awkward for me and him also.. sian. luckily taking leave on fri to go back ny (: cant wait tho!
~11:04 PM
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