missSECRET
I wiped it away,gaze back at the sky...
Coz' no matter how much you hurt me,
No matter how many times you lied..
I won't ever let you see me cry.
FORGIVE ME IF I SMILE..
IT'S TO HIDE MY TEARS...
Saturday, February 21, 2009
i've been crying alot recently. i dont know. maybe its cos of bloc test stress. n quarrels with my stead and also my fav tcher. recently mr s jus ignored me, give me the v cold look and shouts at me an stuff. i dont know why he did that but im extremely upset about it. was it something i said? or was it something i did. dont leave me hanging in a city so dead held up so high on such a breakable thread. i think its not jus infatuation. i do love him, i think i do. tts y i've recently been cold to my stead. i know its wrong of me to b in love with a tcher but i seriously do like him. but these two weeks of how he treated me made me think alot. was it that i've been too close to him in the past that other tchers sort of tell him not to b nice to me anymore or smthing. i dont know. i just know tt i've been crying alot these few days and i cant concentrate on my bloc test. looking at mr s picture do spur me on in studying but my mind n heart is so occupied with this matter. i dont know if i should ask him whats wrong. bcos once i know the answer mayb at least i can get a reassurance that its not me which is causing him to dislike me. i just want to search for this answer. what went wrong between us? anw he's been having cold these few days hope he get well soon. i just wished i could turn back time and enjoy the moments he pay attention to me. i love him. i just wanna see him smile at me once again, tease ,e once again. it hurts to see him ignore me. if hurting myself will get him to do that once again, i will cut myself or take drugs. i dont mind as long as i can hav his love once again.
ps szeting... im not angry at you, its ur own private life and bsides im too preoccupied with mr s that i cant think of anything else anymore.
~2:20 PM
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i've been crying alot recently. i dont know. maybe its cos of bloc test stress. n quarrels with my stead and also my fav tcher. recently mr s jus ignored me, give me the v cold look and shouts at me an stuff. i dont know why he did that but im extremely upset about it. was it something i said? or was it something i did. dont leave me hanging in a city so dead held up so high on such a breakable thread. i think its not jus infatuation. i do love him, i think i do. tts y i've recently been cold to my stead. i know its wrong of me to b in love with a tcher but i seriously do like him. but these two weeks of how he treated me made me think alot. was it that i've been too close to him in the past that other tchers sort of tell him not to b nice to me anymore or smthing. i dont know. i just know tt i've been crying alot these few days and i cant concentrate on my bloc test. looking at mr s picture do spur me on in studying but my mind n heart is so occupied with this matter. i dont know if i should ask him whats wrong. bcos once i know the answer mayb at least i can get a reassurance that its not me which is causing him to dislike me. i just want to search for this answer. what went wrong between us? anw he's been having cold these few days hope he get well soon. i just wished i could turn back time and enjoy the moments he pay attention to me. i love him. i just wanna see him smile at me once again, tease ,e once again. it hurts to see him ignore me. if hurting myself will get him to do that once again, i will cut myself or take drugs. i dont mind as long as i can hav his love once again.
ps szeting... im not angry at you, its ur own private life and bsides im too preoccupied with mr s that i cant think of anything else anymore.
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WISH.
I wanna runaway.
Live my life my own way.
Do things I want them to be.
Just get life done and over with.
Wish I had a shining white armor man.
With a castle full of maids.
And live my life with my man.
And hopefully he won't ruin this life.
And get hopefully I get to live my life.